2 months

Tomorrow is 1st May 2010, Joash if you still in mummy's tummy you would be 27 weeks 5 days. I really do miss you so much. Feeling so melancolic as I am sitting at Hongkong cafe. Sitting here see so many parent bringing their babies and pushing prams around and background music playing Chinese song that goes 為什麼要離開我，是不是我做 錯了什麼。。。really sometimes I am still thinking what have I done wrong to deserve such thing. Joash how I wish you are still here and around.

Yah Lan came and took our cgm yesterday... She preached abt the sacrifies of praise in difficult time. I understand and understood totAlly. As my EDD is approaching the more I feel lousy and frustrated because I know there will not be a bb in my arms to hold and cuddle. God teach me to be positive and continue to trust in ur faithfulnnes and love for us. 我要有一個勇敢的心。