Missing you always...

One and a half month had passed, not living a day w/o thinking of you. Whenever I hold other ppl's baby, I am thinking how good if this is my son, or either that I am thinking I can't even hold my own child why am I holding others. Joash you will have another 10 more weeks before you are due, but you left us too early. How God I can't keep my mind not thinking of this child you had first sent, my first born son. God if You are willing will You sent me another child that are healthy and born full term. Lord I want a miracle and hoping for a miracle. And I am sure Joash you too will wish to have another siblings to be with here with mummy and daddy right?

Miss u dearly son

Don't let them say, I wasn't born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave
I've loved you from the start.

Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone.
This world was worthy, not, of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms
Someday we will embrace.

You'll hear that it was "meant to be,
God doesn't make mistakes"
But that won't soften your worst blow..
Or make your heart not ache.

I'm watching over all you do,
another child you'll bear.
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you'll understand.

Although, I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes..
That doesn't mean I never "was"
An Angel Never Dies........
~Unknown