Missing you always...

One and a half month had passed, not living a day w/o thinking of you. Whenever I hold other ppl's baby, I am thinking how good if this is my son, or either that I am thinking I can't even hold my own child why am I holding others. Joash you will have another 10 more weeks before you are due, but you left us too early. How God I can't keep my mind not thinking of this child you had first sent, my first born son. God if You are willing will You sent me another child that are healthy and born full term. Lord I want a miracle and hoping for a miracle. And I am sure Joash you too will wish to have another siblings to be with here with mummy and daddy right?