The grace of God

It has been 2 yrs since I last updated our blog. Yes, after the proposal, we are pronounced MAN & WIFE on the 10th Aug 2009. Time really pass so quickly ... I am blessed to have a happy marriage life. A very loving and understanding husband, not rich but never hesitate to give me his best. And I love this man very much. I thank God for giving me a good husband.




This marriage and timing I thought was so perfect when I found myself pregnant with Joash in Oct 2009 and his EDD is on 25th July 2010. And we were both so excited about him. We were anticipating and planning for the things we are going to do and discussed what school will he attend... etc ... etc... We decided on the name JOASH because is he is a gift from God or God's given.... Joash Lee such a beautiful name.

A picture of Joash 12weeks old in mommy's tummy


Joash had always been a good boy. From day 1 of pregnancy, I never had morning sickness... the only time I puked was after eating Yam Cake... um guess that's the only thing Joash didn't like. My pregnancy went on very smoothly throughout the weeks and I am surely a happy mommy and yogi a happy daddy. And of cos from the scan we would see that you are a happy baby dancing and sucking your thumb in the ultrasound, and you are never shy of revealing your sex to us...we love u son :)

Then came the fateful day on the 1st of March 2010, during a check-up that found Joash's heartbeat stopped. My world suddenly came tumbling down. I was shut off, I don't know what to do, Yogi looked so lost..... My darling is dead...at that moment all our dreams, visions, goals and things we had planned are gone. He is my first born, and why God had given and now he choose to take away? Questions and reasonings on what causes all this keeps haunting my mind. My poor BB is gone.

Perhaps, he is not destined to be with us on earth. God's way are always higher than ours. But why of all people and of all babies my Joash... 3 weeks has passed and we had never gone through each day without thinking of you and missing you. Joash, daddy and mommy always wanted to hug and cuddle you... I always remember the old children hymms I love to sing to you as I am walking around in the hospital.... Now we are left with nothing, except for a heart that longs for you. We no longer able to look forward for you to call us daddy and mommy. But I am sure, now you are well taken care of and waiting to meet us when time has come.

Joash daddy and mommy wana let you know, you are forever our first born son, no one can ever replace. Though mommy had only had you for that 19weeks, we would like to thank you for bringing so much joy into our lives. Farewell, my son and we will surely meet one day.

Dad and Mom miss you.

The song I always sinf for Joash.