Craziest thing we will do

I guess today is the craziest thing we will ever do.... We made our way to expo for baby fest 2010. It's something we looked forward to when Joash is still around, hoping we can get a stroller and cot from the fest. Well there are not much stuff except for cheap diapers and some baby cot. Been thinking we could get all these stock up for Joash. We miss him. Then headed down to great world city planning to catch a movie... After getting the tickets guess wat we ended up walking into mum and babes. Saw a few beautiful cot but no use buying it cos there will not be baby lying in there. Joash how we wish you are still around. We miss u :(

Mommy miss you Joash

I've been waiting for you for such a long time
You're always on my mind
And I'm laying awake most of the night
Waiting to hold you tight
Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again

Close to my soul, close to my heart
Right from the start
Lost in time, lost in space
Can't wait to see your face

Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again

Sometimes I find myself wondering what to do
With this pain that I'm going through
But I know one day, God will take me away
And I'm coming home to you

And when I do, and look at you
My heart is healing, I know it's true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again
In heaven we'll meet again

Dear Son
The lyrics speaks of what daddy and mommy is feeling. On earth we are not destinated to meet but one day when God bring us home, there we know we will get to see you at the heavenly gates waiting for us and there we will spent eternity together.
Love u son
Dad & Mom

The grace of God

It has been 2 yrs since I last updated our blog. Yes, after the proposal, we are pronounced MAN & WIFE on the 10th Aug 2009. Time really pass so quickly ... I am blessed to have a happy marriage life. A very loving and understanding husband, not rich but never hesitate to give me his best. And I love this man very much. I thank God for giving me a good husband.




This marriage and timing I thought was so perfect when I found myself pregnant with Joash in Oct 2009 and his EDD is on 25th July 2010. And we were both so excited about him. We were anticipating and planning for the things we are going to do and discussed what school will he attend... etc ... etc... We decided on the name JOASH because is he is a gift from God or God's given.... Joash Lee such a beautiful name.

A picture of Joash 12weeks old in mommy's tummy


Joash had always been a good boy. From day 1 of pregnancy, I never had morning sickness... the only time I puked was after eating Yam Cake... um guess that's the only thing Joash didn't like. My pregnancy went on very smoothly throughout the weeks and I am surely a happy mommy and yogi a happy daddy. And of cos from the scan we would see that you are a happy baby dancing and sucking your thumb in the ultrasound, and you are never shy of revealing your sex to us...we love u son :)

Then came the fateful day on the 1st of March 2010, during a check-up that found Joash's heartbeat stopped. My world suddenly came tumbling down. I was shut off, I don't know what to do, Yogi looked so lost..... My darling is dead...at that moment all our dreams, visions, goals and things we had planned are gone. He is my first born, and why God had given and now he choose to take away? Questions and reasonings on what causes all this keeps haunting my mind. My poor BB is gone.

Perhaps, he is not destined to be with us on earth. God's way are always higher than ours. But why of all people and of all babies my Joash... 3 weeks has passed and we had never gone through each day without thinking of you and missing you. Joash, daddy and mommy always wanted to hug and cuddle you... I always remember the old children hymms I love to sing to you as I am walking around in the hospital.... Now we are left with nothing, except for a heart that longs for you. We no longer able to look forward for you to call us daddy and mommy. But I am sure, now you are well taken care of and waiting to meet us when time has come.

Joash daddy and mommy wana let you know, you are forever our first born son, no one can ever replace. Though mommy had only had you for that 19weeks, we would like to thank you for bringing so much joy into our lives. Farewell, my son and we will surely meet one day.

Dad and Mom miss you.

The song I always sinf for Joash.

Special Nite at Keppel bay 18th Oct 2008

1st the cake:




Then the ring



Comes the man kneeing:



Part of the supporters:



I say Yes



Force to perform:



Happy Ever after



Wait close up of my ring:

Relaxing holidays

It has been a long time since I R&R at home. Thx God for PH like today.... Been exhausted from work recently and today really meant much to me. Woke up late in the morning and prepare lunch, watch tv while having my lunch and now surfing net and updating my blogs ... is really something I didn;t manage to do... I feel it's really a luxury for me. Um ... shld I catch a movie with yogi later? I really hope today dun pass me by so fast......

New Job

Yeah when for an interviewed today and Yes I got the job. I really pray hard when I recieve a call from the employment agency to go down for a interview today. I was initially beri weary as I thought the Dr that is going to interview me is going to be beri stern. haha thx God it turn out to be beri good and 1st time I was accepted immediately partly based on my certificate in theology. wow I didn't know that it will come in use. Yes I was confirmed once the Dr came in to Macdonalds and intro herself then we had a converstion less than 3mins then she told me ok I like u and when can u start work... the best thing is she is giving me w/o bargaining the salary I asked for... wow wow wow. It will be my 2nd full time job since SGH feeling beri excited. Will start work on nxt Wed ... Really want to thank God for His faithfullness and indeed I count myself beri blessed.

Happy Nurses Day

Today is Nurses Day ... happy nurses day to all nurses out there. Yeah today was at scott isetan walking around and I saw this beautiful wallet from fossil that I fell in love at 1st sight ...



I was thinking if I shld buy it but look at the price $108 I stopped to consider, so I ask my yogi to come and take a look at the wallet if it's worth buying.... He told me " well it's a nice wallet but brand is fossil not worth it for it kind of price ..." so I just say ok lor ... and left for my interview. After my interview, I went back to scott's again as I wanted to get the wallet cos I really like it but was just sold off and it was the last piece. I was so disappointed......

Then my dear yogi suddenly presents me with this wallet I wanted .. I was beri beri Happy .... heehee I'm gonna luv it luv it ..... yeah it was my nurses day gift from him... he's so sweet rite ..... :)